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Aug. 31st, 2003
being perky for fun and profit
Aug. 31st, 2003 04:14 pmThree years ago I was astounded and amazed by the energy and enthusiasm people had for their organizations and events. Two years ago I was thrilled and astounded to be able to share the group I love with people who were interested. One year ago I was happy to find people who wanted to share something enjoy. This year... this year I'm just tired.
It feels like more and more of my current life gets summarized by feeling tired. There are things I'm enthusiastic about, and things I enjoy, and then there's all the things which feel like they're just dragging me down into the muck.
It's not that I'm drowning. That would be too melodramatic even for me in this mood. It's just that... I'm tired. I don't feel like I can keep up with the world and the people in it.
It feels like I was given a certain allotment of energy to live with, and recently I've been using up too much of it too fast, and now I don't have enough. At least, not enough to keep up at this pace.
I feel old and uninteresting. But then, I've always felt uninteresting.
It feels like more and more of my current life gets summarized by feeling tired. There are things I'm enthusiastic about, and things I enjoy, and then there's all the things which feel like they're just dragging me down into the muck.
It's not that I'm drowning. That would be too melodramatic even for me in this mood. It's just that... I'm tired. I don't feel like I can keep up with the world and the people in it.
It feels like I was given a certain allotment of energy to live with, and recently I've been using up too much of it too fast, and now I don't have enough. At least, not enough to keep up at this pace.
I feel old and uninteresting. But then, I've always felt uninteresting.