strangers...
Jan. 31st, 2004 11:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
amyamyStrange people moving drunkenly (and loudly) through my hall, remind me of ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
captainecchi's old complaints about this room. I don't mind them that much - wouldn't be sleeping yet anyway and it doesn't happen that often - but...
Somebody walked by and wrote 'fucku' on my door, right underelectrolite37's 'loff'.
And I don't care what they're on or what they're on about, honestly. They can't spell and they're generally unoriginal, which is fine. But I'm insecure enough that my first thought was "who's upset at me?" Despite the fact that I'd heard the laughter of whoever it was as they left the hall (which is why I went to look in the first place) and didn't recognize the voice, I still though it was someone I know, someone I care about, who was upset with me.
And maybe it is. Maybe I've hurt someone, or ruined somebody's day/week/month/term/year/life, although I doubt it. But I'm good at doubt, and I'm good at worrying, and I'm good at not liking myself, so it doesn't seem at all strange to think that other people don't like me either.
Wah
captainecchi's old complaints about this room. I don't mind them that much - wouldn't be sleeping yet anyway and it doesn't happen that often - but...Somebody walked by and wrote 'fucku' on my door, right under
electrolite37's 'loff'. And I don't care what they're on or what they're on about, honestly. They can't spell and they're generally unoriginal, which is fine. But I'm insecure enough that my first thought was "who's upset at me?" Despite the fact that I'd heard the laughter of whoever it was as they left the hall (which is why I went to look in the first place) and didn't recognize the voice, I still though it was someone I know, someone I care about, who was upset with me.
And maybe it is. Maybe I've hurt someone, or ruined somebody's day/week/month/term/year/life, although I doubt it. But I'm good at doubt, and I'm good at worrying, and I'm good at not liking myself, so it doesn't seem at all strange to think that other people don't like me either.
Wah
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*hugs*
Date: 2004-01-31 08:57 pm (UTC)your rock.
the end :)
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Date: 2004-02-01 07:05 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2004-02-01 07:51 am (UTC)::loffs:::
Come poke me or I shall hunt you down.
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Date: 2004-02-01 09:37 pm (UTC)